The Universe of Randomossity

I haven't played on here for a while, have I?

A lot has changed... *nods sagely*

I'm still working at Sage, which is fine, though it's now payroll year end, so I'm waiting for the fan/extrement synchronisation.

I am also single. After about 7 years of being with Dom, and most of that spent living together, I gave up due to so many issues that it'd be a total bitch-fest to rant about them here.

Which is annoying because I want to rant *grins*

On the other hand, at least one of the rooms in the house is clean and tidy (because I cleaned and tidied it) and he's in there with his futon and pc.

I'm in the still-messy room with the bed we've been sharing, and so on. So it sucks a bit, but nowhere near as much as I thought it would. Given this happened on Saturday, it's possible it's simply too early for me to be feeling it, but all I'm feeling is positivity, that I might get to learn who I am, who I want to be, but not in relation to who I'm sleeping with. It's a simple thing, but it needs to be discovered.

Of course, I'm waiting to discover that I'm actually just a needy soul at heart who wants to be a couple with someone... *g*

But right now? I'm actually looking forward to a journey of self-discovery, and I promise not to spout self-help bull if I can at all avoid it.

So hey world, here I am: come and get me.

(Not mine, I'd like to mention...)

I found this via queenbarwench who has posted the links on her journal...

Vastly amusing (and annoying) feminist ramblings. The antidote to which is here. Of course, that then references this, which says nasty things about a tv show I like.

*giggles and arghs*

These people make me sad though, they analyse everything in such depth, apply these strict 'moral' guidelines and social tendencies to these shows, that they forget that the people who wrote them *probably* didn't mean for them to be taken that way, and likely didn't even realise that it *could* be taken that way...

Feminists amuse me though, they have this abhorence of all 'normal' behaviour - yes, the behaviours are socially thrust upon us, but I'm reasonably happy with my behaviour - I could wish for a little more tolerance of my liking for slash - I tentatively mentioned slash-fic to my mother (in the context that it exists) and was actually quite shocked when she responded in a rather horrified way. I really thought that she wouldn't have an issue with it :/ she was, after all, a teen in the 60's...

Anyway. I really can't consider myself a feminist after reading the diatribes of people who sound like they're still unsure what constitutes a healthy relationship - it does amuse me (and make me very very cross) that they consider m/f intercourse to be rape, the female orgasm to be a product of some strange need to satisfy men, and that women are lesbophobic (I love that word, by the way...it makes me laugh for some reason) yet indulge in these massively polygamous pseudo-sexual lesbian relationships in which we all write porn for each other.

It's left me with the overwhelming urge to write two quite feminine characters having a happy relationship with lots of consensual sex where both are allowed to be passive/active as the situation/desire dictates.

Maybe I'll dig out that Hermione/Cho fic I wrote and try to expand on it. Either that or I'll find someone else who's written some good femme-slash and read that instead.

Anyway.

Ok, I'm like, 1.5 years late reading it but hey, the internet's big, you know?

I found an amusing writer, who asked for fic and...well...got comment-ideas-fic...

Loved it :)

Seriously...last night, whilst I whinged about the lack of Dex/Shep, Dom gave me a situation that I am tempted to write...

It's a crossover of SGA and Harry Potter though, so I'm not sure if/how it would even work, but...it'd be written to completely ignore things from about book 5 onwards because I don't like character deaths etc...

But...it would have to be set once people are of an age to stop people accusing me of things that make me go ewwwwwwww...

Anyway.

Battle in caverns below Hogwarts - you have the Sword of Gryffindor and many other artifacts, including this weird thing that's normally known as The Ring That We Can't Work Out A Use For.

And it activates...20 seconds later, 6 people step through the gate - the normal team (John, Rodney, Teyla, Ronon) with Zelenka and Weir.

Ronon takes one look at Voldemort, bellows 'WRAITH!' at the team and starts firing at him, and the death eaters.

30 seconds later, there are a dozen people standing - the guys from SGA, and the Hogwarts bunch - Harry, Ron, Hermione, Snape, Draco and Lupin all standing there, wands half-raised with O.o faces on...

And y'know, Draco would be all over John cos hey, dark hair, heroic, cute and wayyyyyy more experience than Harry...Harry willing to be a man about the whole thing whilst trying to hide his gnawing jealousy and being confused over the strange feeling in the pit of his stomach when he sees Ronon...Rodney would be disgusted with everyone for not being as intelligent as he is, but then would befriend Hermione since she's intelligent, knowledgable and pretty.

Ronon would be hitting on Harry (who would be both uncomfortable and pleased by the attention) to the annoyance of John...Teyla would be highly amused in her serene way and try to rescue Hermione, who would be so grateful that she wouldn't notice the way Ron's eyes bugged out over the pretty, tanned, alien woman...

Lupin and Zelenka would share kindly but sarcastic comments over the best coffee they could find.

Weir, of course, would be trying to diplomatically stop Snape from killing everyone, and working out if they've just done something incredibly stupid by taking out the hideous beasty and its followers...

Straight after the opening fight scene, Lupin would stop and exclaim 'So that's what the prophecy meant by the light of the ring would save us...'

Yeah...I want to either write it, or see it written. If nothing else, it'll be crackilicious.

So I'm at home, slightly bored, and looking for fic. Found rather a lot of it and for some reason, todays kink is the OT4...which meant this site has caused squee and blinking and comments of 'Wow that's hot'.

*goes back to reading*

Have a good Tuesday folks.

I've been reading the IJ Porn Battle, which is utterly fantastic, and I found this story...which, I have to say, caused blinking and the comment of 'Woah, hotness...' and then the thought of 'Does that make me an incredibly bad person? *ponders* I don't think it does - I'm not harming anyone, only fictional characters were used, and it was all consensual...have to say I'm not so good with rape fantasies, and certainly not with the reality, so as long as there's a warning, then I'm fine - I may even read it, and if it's too much, well, the back button works, you know?

If I like the story that goes around it, I might keep going and skim-read the bits that squick me, after all, just because 3 or 4 paragraphs cause me a problem doesn't mean that the story isn't good - after all, I read a John/Rodney slave fic which was so incredibly moving, it had plot, twists, fear, shame, happiness and freedom, all the way through the story. I am really not surprised at how much I cried, reading it - it's the sort of story that lets you invest yourself in it quite strongly - the empathy for the characters is just amazing.

I also think know I don't have the words to do the story justice - the best I can do is say that it's not fanfiction - it can't be, not when it's better than anything written for the show.

I'm hoping that I'll be able to be more open on this lj - when I put things about fic on my lj, I feel like I get grossed out silence...hopefully that won't happen on here :D

I've been reading a lot of Ronon-centric stories lately - had lots of fun and was even inspired to comit yet more rubbish fic...ah well :D The writer of the stories deserves much better than my silly attempts at fic but hey, it's all I have...

As usual, it's pre-slash, suitable for minors (currently) and is SGA Alternate Universe fic. Because I can. Also, no, I don't own it or make any money off it.

Le Sigh.




So there it is, part one...

I know I *said* I'd write some Ronon/John (or Ronon/Rodney.......I just wish I could get Ronon/Zelenka right...) but I'm beginning to think I'll *never* get Ronon's voice right - Zelenka's even worse :/ I don't think I'm cut out to write for fandom sometimes, no matter how much the plot bunny bites my ears...

Still, being a Clicker of Links did mean that I found this, which has pretty much made my night - I laughed at most of it and then got sucked in by how angsty it ended up being...fun though...

So anyway.

I wrote and it's not the world's greatest and I don't know where I'm going with it, if anywhere, but...you know, I wanted it out there. Silly, masochistic me...

And now I'm going to bed.

G'night folks, sleep well.

I just realised (whilst actually making a start on the Ronon/John fic I was considering writing and my god how much of a cliche is it going to be :/) that I could really do with knowing more about the layout of Atlantis - you know, which corridors go where, what they call them...cos otherwise my fic's not going to work if I say that he heads east towards the labs when really he should be going south...I could re-watch SGA and take notes, or just fake it, but I hoped someone might have done the hard work already :D

If not, I'd better get watching, hadn't I...

1) I'm crap and haven't friended everyone that I'd like to yet. I'm going to try to do that tonight...don't let me forget.

2) I really need a prompt - I have the urge to write Ronon Dex/John Sheppard (Stargate Atlantis) - but I'm having difficulty starting. I just need a word or two to get me going. It doesn't even have to be something that'll end up slashy...I just need to write.

Thanks to all

*hugs*

I haven't updated on this thing or really got around to reading people's journals on it...must rectify that...

In other news, Happy Birthday T (I know I said that on lj already but hey, can't have too many birthday wishes...)

*hugs*

Also in other random news:

I got nominated for the monthly 'Yay you've done well' award - and I've won. I'm one of nine winners, but given that's out of over 200 people, it's not too bad...some of the people who've won have won before and are consistently superb so...tis nice to win occasionally though, get a little recognition that I do actually do good work :/

Well, here I am on IJ...

Erm...

It's all a bit spartan, isn't it?

...fortunately it all uses the same settings as Lj, so I can just drop down the list of where I am/what I'm listening to...

cos that's going to make me stay...hmm...